1) Tengok semua makanan or even imagining them food makes me nausea and kembang-kembang tekak.
2) Tapi tak muntah. Tak termuntah.
3) Been losing weight 2kg so far in 3 weeks without trying. And the scale just stays there je.. Tapi rasa diri 'TEBAL'
4) Jalan sikit dah mengah. Dukung Sufi sikit macam angkat 2 kampit besar beras. I'm so unfit wei..
5) Se..nang sangat mengantuk. Especially sebelum tengahari. Been pushing myself to finish works and sit baik-baik depan laptop tapi Ya Allah..mengantuk nya DIA yang tahu.
6) Despite No. 1 and 2 above, berjaya memujuk diri untuk makan sedikit tetapi berulang. The thing is, in 3 hours' gap perut akan berbunyi-bunyi dan rasa lapar macam dah 3 hari tak jumpa makanan.
Suffer those above and... other sappy feelings and weird cravings i'm dealing now. Including that mengada-ngada part where bila suami balik weekend sekejap, terasa sedih macam nak cari helah supaya dia tak balik kerja semula. How i wish i can and he would. But betul..i don't know why emotionally i feel so much love and attached to my daughter Sufi lately and nak 'mengempeng' je dengan my Cik Abang Army.
Despite that..i feel blessed. Ya Allah..kadang-kadang memang tak larat tapi i am loving it. Keep reminding myself that all of this is bless and must endure and keep loving it.
Also i am so thankful i have a daughter that is super amazing cute manja, sangat bijak and "recently surprisingly start to berdikari nak buat semua benda sendiri" and a very supportive, understanding and loving husband. Both are so so caring and keeping me strong through this another life journey.
Thank you Allah. The one i should be thankful to.
You are the most generous. I can say this many times but it still never gonna be enough.
You are awesomely loving. Alhamdulillah.
