Memilih hari ni InsyaAllah.. untuk mula berbelog.
I want this corner to work well. Same as i want things to go well after the big step taken today. Eh tak tak. Yang tu nak the best. But anyway that's probably why i choose today to start writing here.
Probably one day I'll disclose what happened. What i did today remind me about facing our fear. And in my shoes, what I fear today is actually the fear of uncertainty. Or perception. Or..err..public speaking? In the end..nothing happened. Well not as what I imagined or predicted whatsoever. I may say that it went well.
And I feel so much better. One big 'to do' thing settled. Alhamdulillah.
Rasa macam seketul batu besar yang dok menghempap dada dah being lifted up. So lega.
Big decision was made. And first step taken.
I can't wait to share what's going on with hubs. But like it or not, I have to wait.
Sufi's reaction was.. "yeay!!"
For me? I was half "yeay" and half of *gulp*
Takut juga. Takut masih ada. I know I am facing the fear.
"Ultimately we know deeply that the other side of every corner is freedom"
And coincidentally an old friend suddenly say hi with a short "All the best Lily" message. Thanks. May Allah grant the best to you too.
