HE ANSWERED

This evening i look into the little black book. The old chapter.

6.17pm : "Not even a single minute" Love, you know nothing until you're in it.

I wrote that in March 2013.

"I wish i can confront you. But what good would it makes? Because to me, i don't know you. What's white to me is black to you"

That sentence, few days later.

And then there are these pages of Doa.. 

Sampai sekarang, my tears fall down every time i read those pages. Aku tak sangka, that same feeling of disappointment still lingers setiap kali terbaca my thoughts during that time. That time, when i don't know what to do, with whom can  i share and how long can i keep the truth. Tapi now, Allah showed me the way. And until now, i still keep the truth. Because i think that's the best for me and her. Asalkan dia bahagia. And maybe, the truth already change now. 

Because our sympathy for someone, i believe Allah helped us going through dark moment in our life. When we don't hurt others even though we are at the position that we can, yet we choose not to even when we have the ability, Allah shall protect us from hurts as well.

Looking back then, and where i am now, i know Allah has answered all my prayers. He kept my faith. And give me better Love than what i have choose to let go.

Strange thing is, all the things i asked for her, is now happening in my life. I did not ask for me, i ask for the person that i hurt.

Those days when i can't sleep at night, menyesali kesilapan yang terlalu besar, i keep praying for her in my heart. And  i pray each time i thought of her, or when she probably thought of me, not in a friendly way. But i prayed for her best anyway.

Tapi mungkin betul apa yang orang selalu kata, bila kita doakan orang lain, malaikat akan mendoakan kita perkara yang sama. Bila kita doakan yang baik-baik untuk orang, tak mustahil hidup kita jugak dapat semua doa-doa itu.

Alhamdulillah..

As always, Al-Fatihah as a gift and Doa with love to you.

Will continue to.